Breaking The Cycle

If you really want to do something, you’ll find a way. If you don’t, you’ll find an excuse. Blaming everybody else is great until you got nobody left around to blame but yourself.

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Dear DAD: I needed you and you didn’t care. How does one sleep at night not knowing if their own flesh and blood is breathing, eating, safe and secure? I’m not sure if your lack of presence was a blessing or a curse. My pain runs deep just like it does for my sister you’ve managed to abandon as well. You brought dysfunction into our lives. You were the first man to break my heart and I’m struggling to not hate you.

I’m sorry that you missed out on something and someone so great. But I guarantee that I won’t let your actions break me. I pray to be the best father to my daughter. That my daughter knows the comfort of their father’s arms, my voice, my love, my care. But then again I’m used to it. Thank you for the pain because without it I wouldn’t know healing, I wouldn’t know love, I wouldn’t know you.

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So much anger towards my Father will only just build up inside me to spew onto others. Funny how toxic people can be and spread like a virus. The cure is to leave behind and never look back. For those that Never want to change for themselves will not be around me or my family.

#BreakingTheCycle

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